Day 186-July 5, 2014

I take the kids to mom's tomorrow and I think that my stepdaughter and granddaughter are coming to stay with me. I have only talked to hubby for about 5 minutes all day but got a text from him this morning. I hate that he is gone but life will not change for me while he is gone. I still have to be here with the kids but even with them at my mom's for a few days I still have to watch my money to make sure that I have the money for gas to pick them up on Friday. Then still have to figure out how to get through next week for gas to get to and from work. Just seems like things are getting better for him but not for me. I am still stuck. My life will never change.