Day 225-August 13, 2014

Started the Tennessee checkbook cover last night and started the Alabama one today. Should have them done tonight and start the candle holder. Then I will make key fobs and awareness ribbons. Going to make yellow, pink, and multicolor for troops support, breast cancer, and autism awareness. I really can't wait. Now I just hope I have the booth fee to do it. 

Day 224-August 12, 2014

Last night I finished putting the tissue box cover together and tonight I have to start the two checkbook covers that a customer paid for. She is meeting me at the vendor show Saturday to pick them up. They should not take long to do. I was going to start them last night but after my stepdaughter moving in with our grandbaby she decided that she didn't want to be with us because we would not let her just get her GED but were making her get her diploma. We want her to be able to do better and have the best chance of succeeding that we can give her but she wants to do things her way. She has the means of doing things with us but her mom will let her do whatever she wants to do so she is torn between being told what to do with us and getting her catered to with her mom. Tough decision for a 17 year old mom of a 2 month old.

I am trying hard to concentrate on what I need to get done for the weekend but it is really hard. Part of me feels like just giving up and the rest of me tells me to keep going. Between the depression, stress, and fighting off panic attacks I don't know what to do. Do I give up or do I push forward? Do hubby and I tell stepdaughter that we will let her get her GED just so we can know her and the baby are taken care of?

Seems like the more we try the more things stack against us. I keep hearing everyone telling me to pray about it. That is all I have done and still things get worse. My heart is just broken and I don't think I can take it anymore.

Day 223-August 11, 2014

Five days left to get things done. I am stressing out and then my depression is kicking in. Feeling like I am never going to meet my goals. This car show will be good exposure for me. I am so ready for it to be here but still have a couple of things to make. My stepdaughter is looking at some of the military patterns and so have I. Thinking about making a few things and putting them on the website as well. She is wanting to make no sew blankets so I told her that I would help her since I know how to do it. Then I would set her up a PayPal with a card and a website for her to help her along. I have the Ladies Night tissue box cover done but just have to finish putting it together. That should not take but about five minutes and then I am starting on a Tennessee Candle holder. That one is going to be my favorite to do. I will also do a mini block calendar of Tennessee to set up. We have about 30 small things done to sell but need more. We can set those out to sell and make more while we are sitting there so that is not a problem. I have an order to complete too this week of two checkbook covers. One of Tennessee and one of Alabama. Those are already paid for.

I still have my boot camp going and thinking about starting a second one just to help bring a little money in. The more I think about it the more I am thinking about instead of Tennessee candle holder looking at doing a pink ribbon candle holder. We also are making some awareness ribbon pins. Those are not hard to make and they don't take long to do.

I hate when my depression starts getting to me. It makes me want to just give up. I know I have to keep going. The more I get my name out there the more I get orders and the closer I am to my goal. Every bit of money that I make right now will be for building my stepdaughter's room but then after that it will be to get a little cushion that hubby won't know about so that I can start saving to quit my job. Between my orders and his baseball we should be good.

Day 222-August 10, 2014

Less than a week and we have a few things made for the car show. It has been slow go getting things done with getting my stepdaughter and grandbaby settled in. I am tired but I think that is just the stress of getting things done. My stepdaughter is helping me get things done for the car show Saturday. It helps a lot having someone help me but we still have a couple of things to make for display and then we will spend the rest of the time making little things like key fobs and prayer in a pocket and little things like that to make a little cash. It is a $25 booth fee so I need to at least make that much back. I think that we will but we will also be telling about the things that we can make and also let them know that we have a website but that we can also customize the items.

Day 221-August 9, 2014

Being Saturday hubby took me stepdaughter to the store to talk to a manager buddy of his about her getting a job. She as her interview Monday morning. She and I worked on looking at patterns and finished a tissue box cover for the display on Saturday. Still stressing out and wanting to reach my goals but now a new goal is upon us. My stepdaughter has decided to join my business while taking care of her child, working part time and getting her GED. She is helping me get enough orders together and getting them filled to get enough money saved to build on a bedroom for her so she is not sharing with her sister.

Day 220-August 8, 2014

Well, I didn't work on anything last night but did get an order for two tissue box covers last night. They are normally $15 each but instead of $30 I only charged her $25 since she ordered 2. One is of the San Francisco 49'ers and the other is one of hues of purple and blue. I have the perfect colors for that one.

Although I have not worked on things in a couple of days with babysitting the grandbaby and kids getting back in school with the workings going on this morning at my day job it is making me more determined to get things done and get out of this place. I have to revise my list of what I need and then we will go from there. I have to cut the pieces tonight for the ribbon pins and get the girls started on them. Those are pretty easy and then make more of the little things. Just have to get them going. I think I might make some of the team colors.

I did get an order for one of my block calendars from one of the guys in my stepson's unit for Ole Miss but I didn't charge him. Unit sons get freebies. That is a rule with me.

Day 219-August 7,2014

I didn't get to work on anything for watching the grandbaby so my stepdaughter could have her birthday with her friends. So glad she is having fun. I really need to work on things tonight. I got an order yesterday for customized tissue box covers which is not a problem. I'll get things done. But for now I'm at my day job.